JACK'S BLOG

If I could be the perfect person, I would do all the wrong things... Just to be the one, more normal then anyone. If I couldn't walk with you, and have the ability to talk to you, Just because I was different, I would yell and scream, How much I love you. If everything was handed to me, I would throw it all back. Because I don't need the greed, because all I want is you. If I could write the perfect words, I would scribble them all out, because all I need are these crooked words. If I could change the way I look, I would turn it down because I am beautiful. If I had to change my personality for you, I would tell you how I truly feel, because that's just who I am. If I could choose who to fall in love with, it would be you because you make me the best me. I am sorry I am not perfect, but I love the way I am.

The day I met you was the first day of my life. You were like my wife without the fight. I truly wondered how I got this right. Yours was the first face I saw. I think I was blind before I met you. I remember dreaming of something that could compare, but you are just one of a kind. I was so glad that I didn't die before I met you. Then I went out in the rain, and suddenly everything changed. I am not always right with my words, or my decisions but I know you are right for me. Now I don't know where I have been, or where I will go, but I know where I want to be. So I thought that I would let you know, these things take forever, and I am oh so slow. Remember the time we danced in the kitchen at night. We stumbled around with just one light. Remember the first time we said I love you, I just knew I did when I first met you. Now I don't care because I can go anywhere with you, and I will probably be happy. So if you want to be with me. With these things there is no telling, we...

How normal can I be? Every minute of my life I am changing, and I can't derail this crooked cart. If I were to die today, I would be left with so many questions in my life. I know that there is someone out there that truly loves me for who I am. I know there is someone that will be honest with me, and they won't hide away all there feelings. I know someone is out there that won't play games with my heart. I am just wondering who that person is going to be. I continue to have dreams about trust, and my heart. Maybe the answer has been in front of me the whole time I just never wanted to accept it. Of course I never hoped that someone would break whatever was left in my heart. Maybe I am to damn nice to people, and they just walk all over me, they treat me like the trash that I am. They throw there words at me like the punching bag that I am. I never thought I was trash, or a punching bag, or someone to walk all over. Each time I get to know people they put me down like a sic...

The words broke the silents of the room, pouring out with emotion everything fell. She grabbed my already opened heart, Gripping tight pretending it was my hand. We danced in that moment, and pushed our dirt aside. We could've cried until the morning light, but instead we danced until we got it right. Our eyes met like it was the first time, And all of our problems were cleansed through. I can remember you so completely, We stumbled around, We tossed our aching shoes. We were so believable, I could touch you. I could hold your hand, and I could kiss your cheek. The music filled up our heads, In that instant I could finally breath. She dazed at me, I couldn't help but dream; That it would all be better in the very end, And I could hold her hand once again.