JACK'S BLOG

You are beautiful to me The one I day dream of, I saw it in your eyes, Your smile has brightened my life. It’s like sunshine on that first day of spring. The one I think about, Since the day we first met. You are beautiful to me The one I wish I knew again, I saw it in the way you laughed, All the days of our past. You made my heart jump, You made my words skip, You made my hands shake. You are beautiful to me The one I can’t be mad at, For all the days of my life, I will continue to see your beauty, And what would I have done if you never gave your love? And who would I have become if you never decided to run? You’re beautiful to me.

In the month of March it will be a reflection and studying period for me. There won’t be the same format of posts on my blog. That will pick back up in April. I will have some poetry from other poets and at the end of the month I will spend a week on a show called Supernatural. I have been writing some poetry myself.  Again it is not the same format, and it doesn’t have a Christian theme. For the next week I am going to be working on some other ideas for my blog. If you have any ideas in mind I would love to hear them, or if you have any poetry that you won’t mind me posting on my blog that would be amazing. You can email me at chris_caputi@yahoo.com Before I go I would like to mention if you have any prayers or have any struggles in your life and you need someone to talk to, I just wanted to let you know that I am here for you. As a Christian I’ll spend my life being there for people, whether I know you or not. You can always email at the above email address, just ment...

I am just a lost stumbling block, As these days come closer together. My heart sores above my future grave. So, tonight I will burn my body for you, I can’t forget the warmth of your presence. Pictures and images clutter my mind, And I can always see my mistakes, But dear God you’re not one of them. I pick out the days I looked into her eyes, And your beauty just pours out inside. I will follow you into the battle, I will follow you to through the trenches. I will follow you wherever you go. I am just a sinner that made a bed, That now I can’t seem to lie down in, But your grace is forever dwelling on my skin, And your love is forever alive in my heart. In these days I have fallen apart, Wishing I could get her back into my arms, But you are the one I truly need. I could lose myself, But I will forever fight for you. Because I really love you. I will follow you in the oceans, I will follow you up the mountains, I will follow you...

I can’t seem to hold the weight of me, All of my pain has taken me to my knees. All the struggles crumble my heart under pressure, And I feel like everyone is out to get me. I walk so carefully on the sidelines, I speak so quietly so you won’t hear my hurts. You always take my turbulence, You always wake me from my deep sleep, You let me love for free, And take away the condemnation.           So I will take up my cross, And I will lose my life for you, So, you can save my life from me. I can’t seem to imagine the tears that fell from your face, while I struggle to get my sinful head on straight. These human hands can’t heal these wounds, But you heal me even when I am wrong. And I feel like I have forever failed you, And I run away scared of my pain. I bury my shame from everyone I knew. But I never could have kept that from you. You always shake the fear from my bones, You always know...

What does it mean for you to be a follower? Many of us are so ready to be leaders we forget that we must be followers first. Each day as Christians we are faced with the same question and that is, what can I do to be Christ like? I am not afraid to admit that I am not this perfect Christian. I struggle a lot, but it seems that each struggle I have ends up being a lesson. It doesn’t matter how far God seems to me, he is always making himself present in my life. He is there when I am excited about what possibilities are in my life. He is there when I am on my knees crying because of the bad I have been through. I believe each day of our lives no matter what happens good or bad God is working inside of us. Growing up I never understood religion. I mean I understood the concept, but I didn’t really care, I was too busy being a kid. I think even though I wasn’t a Christian as a kid God was working on me to become like his son. I didn’t even realize it. Most of the time we struggle to do w...

Every day is a brand new adventure, We can forever change our mistakes, We have fallen down in many different ways. We don’t have to give up and walk away. There is plenty of time to make this right. As long as you’re here I am not given up the fight. I’ll give you everything I have inside, As long as you just stay here tonight. Happiness comes at the strangest times, And this time could be forever ours. Everyone struggles to find true happiness, But since I found you it became so much easier. We used to have nothing but our love, But now I am hanging onto the stuff that’s leftover. I won’t let go until there is nothing left. I will ride these memories to the end.

I am pushing for the best of everything, I am showing off my true colors. I may be throwing this fight, But I am not giving up on this life. There are times I have this heart of steal, With just one look you could crush it still. You can get scared and run away like a child, But I am never giving up my happiness. I may be reaching for a fantasy, I may be hoping for an unrealistic dream, But I am not yet giving up on us, Bad and worse I won’t let go. There are times I feel so incredible, You can hate me but I will love you so. You can forget me for the rest of your days, But I am never giving up my happiness.

Question; if you had one month to live could you truly be happy with your life? Maybe you lost something along the way. Maybe you completely ruined your lives by the choices you made. Honestly, I think we get so caught up with what we have done in our lives that it’s not really as important as we make it out to be. It’s not about boasting about all the accomplishments you have done or your wall of degrees. We feel that we need to be this machine in order to be this sinless person. We live believing that by the works I have done, that is what’s going to get me into heaven. I notice a lot of people in my city that go to help feed the homeless, but they come in and they feed, and then go home. What is wrong with this picture? Jesus sat with the homeless; eat with them, fellowshipped with the homeless. We can’t truly understand or relate with what people have been through unless we get down to their level. I feel like if this is the way people are severing God than it is all wrong. If yo...

You were the air to the throne, You could have taken control of this home. You were the one I looked up too And now I don’t even know you. Oh, father of mine, Please stand by my side, Don’t think of this as a ride, But an amazing journey. You were my hero when I was lost, How could you toss all that aside? This heart has been brutally ruined, And you’re still drowning in the sickness fluid. This life I have been fighting, Has bled me completely dry. So far from me the pain has subsided, And my hope has come alive. Oh, father of mine, Won’t you stand by my side? And help me fight through the ride, And finally live an amazing journey.

This house stands on its own fear.. With nobody ever really here. The walls are all smashed. Bruises and scars to the knees and back. These words cut you like a knife. This house is not a refuge, This house is no escape. This house is the cause, But will never be the cure. Doors slam and windows break, So open your closet and hide away. Close your beautiful eyes, And cover your sensitive ears. This house is the pain in your heart, This house is the tears in your eyes. This house has no love, This house will never be your home.

When I look out at the world all I see is millions of families without fathers. It breaks my heart to see what this is doing to the kingdom of heaven. I am one of those million that grew up without a father. I can’t even say that, that would be the worst thing. In my opinion the worst thing is to grow up in a home where your father wasn’t what he was supposed to be. There are Christian fathers today that are to prideful to dance with their daughters, there are Christian fathers that cut around all the laws in the bible, but believe that going to Church on Sundays is all they need. These are a few of the many mistakes men are making. Ephesians 6:4 “Fathers, do not provoke your children to anger, but bring them up in the discipline and instruction of the Lord.” There are kids that grow up in a family that believe in God, but outside of Church they have no idea how to seek God, so the kids grow up, and they don’t understand as well and they fall into the same traps. I didn’t grow up a...

I have gotten the worst of this life, and I have fallen so far...for now. and when I make the wrong decisions, and when I am faced in the wrong directions. You still lead me back home. I have lost so many days in confusion. and I have acted out in anger. and I played this fool many times before. but you are always there, you are there to lift me off the floor. I have gotten a bad wrap, and my words don't always speak truth. and my life is far from perfect, but your always there loving me, no matter how much bad I do. You wash me from this sinful me, I believe you are all that I need. I could breakdown everyday, but you have always forgiven me. and when I stray to far from your presence, You still lead me back home.

Dropped to his knees, He sits reaching for freedom, Tears fall from his tired eyes. I do believe, I do believe, You are all I need. His already broken heart shatters again. As he reaches for those once empty pieces, They turn into dust… Here he lays begging and pleading, Let me see you’re beauty, Take my hand and lead me, Because I do believe, I do believe, You are all I need. My soul longs for your presence, You can have what is left of it. Mold me into your beauty, Because I do believe, I do believe, All I need is Jesus.