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When I am Gone

So this is it, I am saying goodbye.
And I am sure you will forget about me when I am gone.
I will take my doubts and fears and get out of this place.
All the days of my life I dreamt of you,
But now I must finally walk away.
So I am hoping this road will lead me back home,
And that all these feelings will fade.
My heart has been so cold,
And I can’t hold myself up anymore.
So this is It, I am saying goodbye,
And I am shedding these mistakes,
Our path was painful and long,
And I have sinned so much,
And I am sure I will answer to them when I am gone.
It is still hard to breathe in because my lungs are stocked up.
It is hard to be real because my heart doesn’t know when to beat.
I have been here for so long it is time for me to leave.
So this is it, I am saying goodbye. 
And I am praying these tears will leave as well.

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