JACK'S BLOG

I am tired of letting all this animosity, get to me. Running from the broken, energy that keeps hovering all over me. Today I am cutting these flimsy strings. A rejuvenated thought. A reawakened heart. It's beating is so cleanly. I'm feeding off what your needing. I'm dreaming no more. I'm believing all for. I'm walking close to my knee's. Lifting my heart towards the clouds. I'm changing worse views. Staring at a magnificent light. So bright blinding all fright. A brand creation. Wasting time with silly rules. With unexplainable words, and unfavorable ways of, expressing feelings kneeling down. Speaking inconceivable things. I am tired of playing second prize. Running from what's falling behind. It's time to say goodbye broken spirit. No more wearing your red stain. All of this pain ends today.

How can I let this all out. You fill up my head, With hatred and doubt. I keep on looking up, But I can’t stop falling down. I can’t believe what happened. How much would you bet That my head could explode. I think I am coming undone. There are times when I, Just want to take off my head. Please stay this night, I promise that I won’t cry, Without you there I don’t, Think I could close my eyes. This constant knot in my gut, Will never go away! I am sick with aches, And I miss you so bad. I look for you in the door way, But your image just fades.

I’m still holding on, To the feeling of your hand. It is soft to the touch, But it hurts so much. I try so hard to look away, Yet I always look for something to say. I wish I could disappear today, And I didn’t have to face my fears. I falling on my knee’s again, What I believed of you is all pretend. How many times will I fall, Until I completely combust? I can’t look myself in the mirror, Without feeling completely ashamed. When I see you, I fall apart, With no sign of redemption. Please, I am begging you, Won’t you come back in, My life, I need your heart. I can’t think of your words, But I am so ready for a new start. I can’t walk away from you, Without signs of a broken heart. I hope I don’t end up completely apart.

It is crazy how this all feels, tonight. I feel like I am turned upside down, or Am I right side up, please tell me. You make it feel alright. In this moment it feels, so great! I don’t ever want to leave this place. I don’t ever want to lose this state of mind. I want more and more of you in my life. Why don’t we watch the sunrise? Why don’t we dance until we are so high? It doesn’t matter as long as you’re here I am dancing. I promise you that I will never let you go again. The more I love you the more it crushes me, Because your just not here anymore. Is this real or am I just dreaming? I would give you anything, Just let back inside your heart. It is crazy how we think of things. I think of the way you were, Your words made me fall down. In this very moment I feel so amazing! I want more and more of you in my life. Why don’t we speak about the wonderful days? Why don’t we sing until our voices give out? I promise that I would give you anything in the world. I love you more, and mor...

Anchor this beautiful night and open up the clouded skies. Just before it goes away and sun shine will raise up. Daze into the bright loving light, And pray for me not. Because I will be fine. Because I won’t lose sight, but I may lose perish time. For this is the best time I have ever had. There is no one person that can take that away. I am a Army of one, yet we will raise. I will take the most of all the arrows or bullets. I will to save you from the pains of today. I will waste away with old words of yesterday. I will place my hand on your side no matter what. My heart is your sculpture mold me the way you want. I hold this day to be the truth. I hold this day that I will be more pure. So run your mouth even if you have nothing to say. Please don’t hide away all of your shame, Please crawl on those knee’s and speak his praises. For this is the best time I have ever had. There is nothing you can do to take that away from me. Speak his wo...

There are thieves like you that rob are dreams blind. You come into our lives and sneak up from behind. Without thought or reason you take everything from the depressed helpless. You crush are hearts and destroy are souls. So, don’t cry victim to me you have a twisted heart. Don’t stop falling apart. Now there is no pain I can’t feel, so give up your constant agony. I finally see what is here for me. I can see what I am not suppose to be. I can see what you really are. It’s not meant for me. Your just a horrible memory trapped in me. Your filled to the rim with terrible sin. So, knock me to the ground. So, throw your negative words at me. I will overcome your hurtfulness. I can only overcome your deceitfulness. I can see that you are smiling on the inside. I can see that you are laughing through the tears. You put on this fake smile on everyday, but You always breakdown crying on the inside. You hurt more than anyone can imagine. I can see ...

I got this feeling in my heart. I have this warmth warped around me. It feels like your love filled me up. I’m crying for you everyday. I LOVE YOU, and I CAN’T STOP! I don’t ever want to lose you. I’m praising you, and I CAN‘T STOP! I want to thank you, and I WON‘T STOP! I think about all the time, AND I AM NEVER GOING TO STOP! I lose my head in your glory, And there is no other place I would like to be. Everyday here I surrender all. I need you, and I DON’T EVER WANT IT TO STOP! I am burning so badly for your love. I am thirsty for your downpour. I LOVE YOU, and I WON’T STOP! I need you and I don’t ever want it to stop. I LOVE YOU!