Memory of Mistakes

These days take such strange shapes.

This life is trapped on these old video tapes.

Everything in these pictures seem so different,

And I can't stop staring at what I used to be.

I was so young and so loose.

I ruled my exciting universe.

Now I am just a sinking memory,

I am the fuzziness that only seems to get worse.

Things aren’t what they used to be.

Every day I wish I could still see again.

These days fall into a train wreck,

And I am not sure if I want to take these chances anymore.

I have seen all of my reactions,

And I have lost all of my connections.

This is to all of you distractions;

So many years have passed.

I am just hoping you will not last,

But here I am again getting lost in my past.

Still wishing I could go back.

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If I Could I Would

If I could change a thing, I think I would have changed everything. If I could have known the truth, I would have never been with you. Twenty-five and I am so tired of this childish love, And all the pain that comes along with all its games. Seems such a waste to throw it all away, But I am who I am, like me or not, But you will never be able to change me. The world has its grips on you, And I am no way getting involved. Today could be the greatest of days, But what would you have changed? All of your wrong mistakes, your bad calls, All your fear and lies, Or are you just so selfish inside? If I could change the way we were, I think I would change everything. If I knew the absolute truth about you, I would have never even met you. Twenty-five to life with all that you did, Is this the end of love, should I give up? And here I am stuck with a broken heart, And busted up sight. These days are blurring together, And nothing seems al...

“Something She Said”

And all of the animals can breath on their own, And I can speak for myself, So you can let go. I’ve turned my back, She continues to stare, What are you looking at? I ask. There is nothing left to in the tank. All of my love has been spent, And I have nothing left to give. I was looking at what I had she replies. Have you noticed what is gone? It’s not just happiness, It’s all of are drugs, We used them all, We lost are love, It’s all gone, All used up. And all of the animals can run free, And I can finally be me, I loved you, but I must leave, So take your lonely hands off of me. And don’t look at me with your sad eyes, And I know longer want to hear your sad song. Because you made this come to be, So stop pretending that you can breath, And don’t act like you can speak for yourself. Because you were so far from who you really are. It was all just something you said.

Love

Have you ever just sat back and thought about how much God loves you? It is easy to look out in this sinful world and not see His love, but it is there. In the last couple of weeks I realized something; that whatever I was searching for all those years has been right in front of me this whole time. I spent so much time praying for love, I spent so much time looking for this “father figure” to step up in my life, and teach me how to be the man I was meant to be. I looked for these things everywhere I went. The one place I looked the most was the Church, I believed in my heart that one of these older wiser men would someday step up, and show me how to be a man of God. What I forget was that God was working in me this entire time, and I had it in me all along. I can sit here and dwell in how much time I wasted, but there is no need for that. There were so many days I spent just being in love, but never showing my love. Love is the most powerful thing in the world. Love can’t be bought. L...

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