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The Good Life

I am trying to be patient here,
But the wheels keep spinning around,
I won’t ever stop from running,
But I can’t stop from falling down.
I am just so embarrassed about everything I am.
A year from now you won’t remember my name.
I used to be so happy,
But I have been so miserable.
Why does this have to be so difficult?
I know how to hide myself,
And I can keep coasting by
What happens when you still love what you lost?
I am living in a fantasy,
And I can still feel the cost.
I feel so vulnerable,
But I wish you won’t remove me,
I don’t want you to cut me out.
I am tired of all you’re doubts.
I am lonely and hopeless.
I am desperate I wish you would hold me.
I am a phony and a fake
In the mornings there are still tears when I wake.
I wonder if I could ever get it back like when I was in love,
And that I could make the commitment of accepting this rejection,
And I wish I could live this life without this deception.
But I guess everything is fine now,
And these are the good times
And we will move on to a new start,
But I am sick of it,
I am sick of everything.
I am sick of saying everything is fine, when it is not.
Here is to the good life.

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