Skip to main content

The Truth Shall Set Me Free

I can remember lying awake, Laughing about what feelings I will fake next. I was always tired of thinking about you. I hated everything you did to me. I hated everything I did. I faked my smile. I faked my happiness. I faked my laughter. Most important I faked Love. I can remember saying I love you first. I did whatever you wanted. I never had desires of kids or marriage. I hated all of your ideas. I hated all my ideas. Most important I hated myself. I didn't like what I had become. I couldn't stand your conversions. Everything we did was all a waste. I rarely ever slept well. My head was drowning in nightmares. Yes I cried, and Yeah I wept. What if everything we did wasn't real? All the emotions I didn't feel. I just wanted to feel something good for once. I never wanted to do what you wanted. I never wanted to do what I wanted. When you were Sad, I was pissed off. When you were Happy, I was Sad. Why you were trying to find your life. I was to busy fighting the war inside my head. Most Important I hated myself. This was never a blessing. It was never meant to be. The fights were all because of me. What if I never Loved you? At the time I lied to everyone I knew. Especially the one's closest to me. What if you never knew me? I didn't even know me! I am sorry to have to tell you this, but I think you fell in Love with Depression. You felt pity for Depression. It was never the real me!

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

“Something She Said”

And all of the animals can breath on their own, And I can speak for myself, So you can let go. I’ve turned my back, She continues to stare, What are you looking at? I ask. There is nothing left to in the tank. All of my love has been spent, And I have nothing left to give. I was looking at what I had she replies. Have you noticed what is gone? It’s not just happiness, It’s all of are drugs, We used them all, We lost are love, It’s all gone, All used up. And all of the animals can run free, And I can finally be me, I loved you, but I must leave, So take your lonely hands off of me. And don’t look at me with your sad eyes, And I know longer want to hear your sad song. Because you made this come to be, So stop pretending that you can breath, And don’t act like you can speak for yourself. Because you were so far from who you really are. It was all just something you said.
Post a Comment
Read more

The End Times?

You will hear of wars and rumors of wars, but see to it that you are not alarmed. Such things must happen, but the end is still to come. Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and earthquakes in various places. All these are the beginning of birth pains. (Matthew 24:6-8; Mark 13:7-8 NIV).Mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days. People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good, treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God -- having a form of godliness but denying its power. Have nothing to do with them. (2 Timothy 3:1-5 NIV). But the day of the Lord will come like a thief. The heavens will disappear with a roar; the elements will be destroyed by fire, and the earth and everything in it will be laid bare. (2 Peter 3:10 NIV). An...
2 comments
Read more

Anchor

I am holding on to the hope that one day this could be made right, I’m this sinking ship, wreak left for dead. Everyone I loved seems to be strangers in the night, but oh my heart still burns, but I am questioning whether I want to search for them. Trouble has been sent my way, and the wicked followed, Here I cry at your feet, Open my eyes so I can see. Anchor of my Soul You Sustain me, When I am in the storm You remain good to me. But true love is the burden that will carry me back home. I am sailing home to you I refuse to stand here alone. By the light of the moon, I will press On. Tie me to this anchor before I lose, the one I love and become lost at sea. So this love will be my burden, all of these memories of beauty. Anchor of my soul You sustain me, when I am in the storm you remain good to me. This ocean has become your grace, and I praise you everyday at sea, the water fills me up, but you hold me stable, guiding me every step of the way. becaus...
Post a Comment
Read more