JACK'S BLOG

This ride is over, did you enjoy yourself? I tried to focus, but my eyes just deceived me. I am watching history repeat itself, In this story everything crumbles at the end. The happiness never does last, It fades all to fast. Did you have your fun? Maybe I should run, because everything I thought would happen is all done. Now it's like it was. I'm falling for the same traps, Running in the same circles. Now I am back at the start. Where things begin to fall apart. I am hating to play this game. When everything is eventually the same. What is true? What is a boy to do? No Matter what I do I lose. I refuse to repeat myself. I would rather call for help. Help me with all these things I've dealt with.

I feel like everything that has been built up so steady can come tumbling down at any moment, and there is nothing were can do to change that from happening. So many people are trapped in there ways. I already know how to be buried so deep that I had no more air left for me to breathe. I wish I could say that it was pleasant, but it wasn't. I know what it feels to have something so real in my hands, and have that ripped away. It's heartbreaking, but God showed me through it. I struggled, I suffered, I felt all the pain that I wished didn't exist. The truth is that you can wish, and you can hope all that you want, but unless you take it to God nothing will ever change. I do wish for the easiest path to take, but sometimes it's better to go down that beaten path. It makes you stronger physical and emotional. I so badly just want to slip out all of the truth to the people that have hurt me in the past, but I've learned from my mistakes that it won't change what hap...

I spent this life looking, Wishing for you. I would lose track of everything I was. I would grip onto anything to feel loved. I dropped so many times, I wavered in my faith. All I wanted was to look you in your face. I was only thinking of you. I didn't know who you were, But I wanted you so bad. I felt your love on my heart. and all I could think about was you. When I heard your voice, I couldn't help but smile. Making you laugh, would knock me down to my knee's. I spent so much time searching for your smell. I couldn't help falling for you. I lost myself dazing into your eyes. All I could do is dream about you. I tried so hard just to reach out, but I don't think you saw me. I spent so much time trying to impress you, I forgot that we could never be involved. We would always talk for hours, but I just wished I could have fought for you. You were as happy as an Angel, but we were never more then just friends. I wish I could have had you....

I have been writing about the theme of falling in love, and I am trying my best of sticking close to that. Of course writing about that is bringing a lot of old feelings up again. I've tried to be as honest as possible, so I am posting a love letter that I wrote, but never gave to that special someone. Same as the other letter I wrote I won't reveal her name. I wrote this early in July of 2009. I hope you like it. You don't know me that well, but if you get to know me a little better I'll go on and on about how hard the writing is for me, but this, this is the hardest thing I ever had to write. There is no easy way of saying this, so I am just going to say it. I met someone, It was a accident, I wasn't looking for it, I wasn't on a make. It was a perfect storm. She said one thing, and I said another. The next thing I knew I wanted to spend the rest of my life in the middle of this conversation. There was this feeling in my gut that she might be the one. She...

     First off, I liked the new Freddy! Of course, I knew before they casted it, that Robert Englund rejected the role, and I was fine with that."He can't play that character forever, even though I wish he would." At times I jumped. I have to say that I liked the casting for this film. It was good to see some new faces, and not the same old famous actors. The writing wasn't bad, but I wish they would've done a little more with how Fred became Freddy. "So you get burned for doing horrible things to kids, and you become a master of controlling dreams (Demon)" I wished there was more.       I found myself not following the story, and just waiting for the next kill. Plus they introduced, and focused on the kids that were going to die next. I thought it would have been better if they surprised us a bit. I did get bored, only because I knew what was going to happen. I didn't think the kids had a chance. I mean they thought about pulling ...

Dear ****** ****,     “I know I wasn’t the smartest most intelligent guy in this great big world, but I always had love in my heart for you. I know that sometimes I tried too hard to get you close to me, even when you were already there. I always felt as if even when I had you there that you were going to disappear. I felt that one day I was going to lose faith in you, and you were going to run away. I guess I wasn’t wrong. I fell head over heals for you, and we just should’ve been friends. The truth is that I was so down on myself that I just wanted someone to love me. Someone to share my pain with. Someone to laugh with. Someone to hold me close. Someone to care about. It was a mistake from the very beginning. I don’t have any clue what you saw in me. I was more twisted then I have ever been in my life. My emotions were insane, and you just didn’t help. Now I can see that it couldn’t have been complete love when I thought about killing myself after you had left me for...