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Opened Letter 2

I have been writing about the theme of falling in love, and I am trying my best of sticking close to that. Of course writing about that is bringing a lot of old feelings up again. I've tried to be as honest as possible, so I am posting a love letter that I wrote, but never gave to that special someone. Same as the other letter I wrote I won't reveal her name. I wrote this early in July of 2009. I hope you like it.

You don't know me that well, but if you get to know me a little better I'll go on and on about how hard the writing is for me, but this, this is the hardest thing I ever had to write. There is no easy way of saying this, so I am just going to say it. I met someone, It was a accident, I wasn't looking for it, I wasn't on a make. It was a perfect storm. She said one thing, and I said another. The next thing I knew I wanted to spend the rest of my life in the middle of this conversation. There was this feeling in my gut that she might be the one. She's completely nuts, the kinda way that makes me smile. She's loud and a great deal of maintenance is required. She is you ******. That's the good news, the bad news is that I don't know how to be with you right now. I just wish I could be just fine, and, that scars the hell out of me. Because if I'm not with you right now I have this feeling that we will get lost out there. It's a big bad world of twists and turns, and people have a way of blinking and missing the moment. The moment that could have changed everything. I don't know what's going on with us, and I can't tell you why you would waste a leap of faith on the likes of me, but damn you smell good, like home, and you are the cutest when you laugh. I absolutely can't get enough of you. Now that has to count for something, right? If it was all up to me I would leave with you in a heartbeat. I still have feelings for you, beautiful, but I some how know that this won't help. I tried.

                                                                                                             I'm faithfully yours,
                                                                                                                             Chris

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