A Serious Loss

Trapped in deep solitude.

Your swimming around my brain.
As scenes slowly disappear.
Wandering around in broken thoughts.
Why am I fighting the so called good times?
And If I stayed...would we be okay?
She was the gift, and I was the curse.
Hide away her fatal name.
Rest forever, unrevealed.
Please I am begging you,
don't write this down,
not a word, not a sound.
It's already stuck deep inside of my subconscious.
Please wash it out with these tears.
In vain everything has been lost, but

these relentless walls have grown so dark,
but this heart never seems to obey me.
The well known name awakens all of my woes,
all it comes with is your misfortune, tearing me apart.
We used to breathe in what love inspires.
Now complex ideas, and images,
become lost and fallen memories.
The fire is no longer fire,
when all of these buildings are crumbling.
Sprint towards the light,
because this darkness just won't stop catching us.
And if I grabbed your hand,
would you run with me?
Run with me inside these lasting memories.
And if I would've erased you completely,
would you have completely hated me?
I wish I would've, but I couldn't have stayed,
because in the end you were just a face without a name.