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Freedom

            What comes to mind when the word freedom is heard? Does it mean anything to your listening ears? Four years ago I would have told you that I was free because I could do anything I wanted and nobody could stop me. I used to show all of my anger, and I would do a lot of bad things. I remember breaking into a hotel once and acting like we had a room, and then cussing around and at young children. At the time it felt amazing I loved every minute. I remember running from the cops and hiding and getting away from setting off fireworks. I remember trying to have sex in a parking lot at the beach. I remember partying all night with my friends and staying up until 7 in the morning. I remember sleeping in a strangers house and lying about everything that I did. I remember hiding the way I felt towards everything. I hid it behind a mask so nobody knew what I did or acted the way I did. But through all the things I have done I am not proud, and all those years ago I felt that I was free, but the truth was in fear of someone I loved finding out, and I was in constant battle with myself, but I felt that I should do them anyways. I actually believed that this was my freedom, but the truth was the Devil was dragging me around on his chain. The worst thing about it I convinced myself that this way of life was helping when in reality I was still in pain.
            Trust me I know this new found darkness, the bad language, the freedom to do what you want, but you seem to only do bad things; like cussing people out and drinking and smoking seems like you are free, but you will never be free living that way. I know the feeling like you could do no wrong, but all you seem to do is wrong and you don’t even care anymore. All the people that you used to care about you don’t even notice anymore. Anyone that is trying to show you that right way you push out of your life because you want to do bad and good has no room. The hardest lesson I learned in my life is all the things I did bad and felt it was fun I paid for badly. It wasn’t the greatest feeling at all. It took years, and the pain didn’t just disappear in thin air. The truth is I did some stupid things and wasted years of my life. So I hope that you aren’t that naïve to think that you won’t have to pay for your wrong doings. I would have never known if I didn’t find Jesus Christ. The Devil would have continued to drag me around, and I would have continued to do wrong and not even seen all that I had coming to me. (Galatians 6:7 “Do not be deceived: God is not mocked, for whatever one sows, that will he also reap.”)
            One thing you will have to understand is that the Devil lies and uses his tricks to make you think that you are free from the rules. He will turn you against the world, by twisting your words and making your anger come out. He will get you to do things that later on in life you will regret. Think about it this is what he does. It is what he wants. Do you feel your relationship with God become less and less, or do you have a relationship with God? Don’t be fooled the Devil will never reveal himself to you, and the reason why is so he can stay in the shadows. (1 Peter 5:8 “Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.”) Hanging around with people that are leading you in the wrong direction isn’t a good thing. If you’re not willing to see that they are dragging you down with them then it is sad to say but you will have what is coming to you. Though life isn’t fair, but you aren’t just going to get away with your sins. Yes, they can be forgiven, but what goes around comes around.
            After all that I did I finally accepted Christ into my heart, and yes I struggled for years for all the bad things I did, but God has forgiven me. One thing to note just because God will forgive doesn’t me you should go out and sin on purpose. In case of that you are playing right into the Devils hands. The best thing I can tell you is if you find yourself falling into sin run away from it. If you see your life changing in a direction you never expected repent and never look back it may be the hardest thing you have to do, but do it, trust God, because letting the Devil have control in your life isn’t freedom. Living for God is the only true freedom.
            So are you truly free in your life? I know what it is like to deny the good in yourself because of pain. Are you making excuses about everything? It is very easy to sin, but the hard part will be to do what it good and what is right. (Joshua 1:9 “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”)

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