So Far Away

I can see the sun shining through the blinds,

And hear the birds chirping in the mornings.

There is still this smile on my face,

And the tears no longer fall.

I have never felt so free,

The laughter comes so easy.

and the days seem so real.

Is this my life?

It isn't what it used to be,

I can share all my feelings.

But it feels too good to be true,

Am I dreaming?

Please don’t shake me,

Cause I might be sleeping.

Even though the days are like heaven,

I can feel the past lingering around.

It is waiting for me to fall back down.

now that I have been this far,

Are my mistakes forever my scars?

I can’t forget the shame I caused you,

And every disappointing decision I made.

So here I am,

Still wondering how I got this far.

I will spill my tears too you,

But this feels too good to be true,

Am I dreaming?

Please don’t shake me,

Cause I might be sleeping.

now that we are here in this moment,

I am glad we fought this far.

I feel like I can face the days ahead,

And I don’t have to be ashamed for what I did.

You pushed me in all the right directions,

And that is why I am the person I am today.

So this is my life,

And these are all the mistakes I've made.

We got this far away from the pain,

But why am I so afraid of waking?

Please don’t shake me,

I am afraid of waking, 

Cause I might be dreaming.