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Just Another Bad Luck, No Good Day!

I don't like this place no more. I don't like this town. There is nothing left here for me. I just want to leave so bad, but I'm stuck. I want to walk on my own two feet. I want see my family. I'm sick of being held back. I don't fit in with nobody. What happens when I succeed? What happens when I make the big dream? Then What? It doesn't change the fact that I'm just another person with no friends. I'm just someone that is wasting away with nobody. How am I suppose to live like this? What the hell am I suppose to do? How do I get passed this emptyiness? This life is not suppose to be like this. Where is my mind? It hurts so bad, I wish it would just go away. I wish I could end this saddness. I wish I could be me again. I wish it would go back to the way it used to be. I'm so cold I don't know what to do. What do I do now? What am I going to do when this is all over? Please help me I have nothing left. Please be the one to save my soul. Please save me from my torment. It's hard to fake something so real. Why can't I heal? Why can't I just left go? I just keep falling so far. Make this pain go away. I'm falling apart again and again. There is nothing left. I wish someone was there. I'll just drink myself to sleep I'll just hope to wake up, for the next, and then another.

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