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The Invisible War

I am just a kid fighting the world with his bare hands. I am so choked up on the words that are spoken. I hit you with my fist and my broken heart. I am just not good at falling apart. I am not very good at believing the lies. I am not very good at following behind. I am not very good at hiding my anger. I am not very good at letting it out. I am just a man broken at the knees. I keep on punching, but I am losing my desire to bleed. I wasn’t meant to bleed for me. I wasn’t meant to race these dreams. I wasn’t meant to lose sleep over hurt. I fall with a blow to the head, it hurts worse than it sounds. I find it hard to get back up this time. I am just not very good at war. I am not very good at remembering things. I am not very good at paying attention. I am not very good at speaking the truth. I am just as broken as you would imagine. I have bled my strength, there is nothing left. I can’t fight for me, but for you it would be an honor.

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