This is bitter luck that never turns out alright.
This day is a little screwed up, and I bleed the same.
If I hurt then it’s not the best for anyone.
If your alright, then I won’t be fine.
I’m feeling nothing on this shattered outside.
If your cut, then I’ll bleed so deep.
I could use these new scars.
I could bleed so much for us.
I’m in my most highest state of mind.
I’m in the weakest state of health.
When I’m yelling at myself.
With nothing much to say.
I can change my ugly ways,
But I don’t know if I could believe again.
Only when I’m at my worst.
Is when I fall to the ground.
I can shut my eyes,
And never see again.
Because I’m tired of looking at these horrible things.
I’m still trapped in this violence called my reckless life.
I now know that you always let me down, and now I know I’m going down.
It hurts to notice the good days because there are very few of them left.
I was put on this world to hurt from my head to my toes.
I was faced with these troubled thoughts and they won’t go away.
I hurt so much nothing can make this go away.
One of these days I’m going to slip into the darkness and I won’t ever come back.
One of these days I’m going to fall into the sea and nobody is going to be there for me.
One of these days I’m going to drown and not a single person is going to care how.
Is this what it takes to make an illusion, or Will this ever come to be the truth? Why do I do the things I do? Why do I dream of these horrible things? I just want to know your view. It hurts to know what is not meant to be real. It hurts never knowing what will hurt next. I don’t want you to forget about me. I don’t ever want to go far away. I want to stick around forever. I want to stand up and fight. I don’t want to lay down and die. I want to be more than a weird nobody. I can’t breath on my own. I can’t stand on my own to feet. I need you more than I can imagine. Tell me that everything is O.K! I wish I could say that everything is alright. We can run away and live on forever. Where ever I go the pain follows my soul. Please make it go away from here. I want us to be free from this rule. I want us to run and never think again. I feel like this is my dream, and When I wake my smile will disappear. I want to say hey, everything is great! I want to hold you and talk of the good thin...
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