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First There is Pain, Then Hate, and Finally Me!

I don’t like this transformation. I hate what I have become. I can’t breathe, my head hurts. I can’t stop hating, I can’t stop screaming. Tell me! Who am I suppose to be? I hide this pain, but it comes out of me anyways. I don’t want to be this person anymore. I don’t want to hurt you no more. I’m the only greatness that follows you around. I just wish someone would understand me. I don’t walk around with an S on my chest, I have so much pain that makes me weak. I can’t talk in this tone, or stand in your lines. I can’t say that I like anything I say. I confess that the creep is just me. I confess I am the waste you hate to talk about. I continue to make the same old mistakes, and The results never change. I don’t like me, and I hate these fears. I lie to your face and smile on the inside. I am that sound that causes you to cover your ears. I am that devil that makes you hate so bad. I get sick when I talk to anyone, Some times I wish I was never here. This is not the way things were suppose to plan out. How is this safe?

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