Skip to main content

First There is Pain, Then Hate, and Finally Me!

I don’t like this transformation. I hate what I have become. I can’t breathe, my head hurts. I can’t stop hating, I can’t stop screaming. Tell me! Who am I suppose to be? I hide this pain, but it comes out of me anyways. I don’t want to be this person anymore. I don’t want to hurt you no more. I’m the only greatness that follows you around. I just wish someone would understand me. I don’t walk around with an S on my chest, I have so much pain that makes me weak. I can’t talk in this tone, or stand in your lines. I can’t say that I like anything I say. I confess that the creep is just me. I confess I am the waste you hate to talk about. I continue to make the same old mistakes, and The results never change. I don’t like me, and I hate these fears. I lie to your face and smile on the inside. I am that sound that causes you to cover your ears. I am that devil that makes you hate so bad. I get sick when I talk to anyone, Some times I wish I was never here. This is not the way things were suppose to plan out. How is this safe?

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

If I Could I Would

If I could change a thing, I think I would have changed everything. If I could have known the truth, I would have never been with you. Twenty-five and I am so tired of this childish love, And all the pain that comes along with all its games. Seems such a waste to throw it all away, But I am who I am, like me or not, But you will never be able to change me. The world has its grips on you, And I am no way getting involved. Today could be the greatest of days, But what would you have changed? All of your wrong mistakes, your bad calls, All your fear and lies, Or are you just so selfish inside? If I could change the way we were, I think I would change everything. If I knew the absolute truth about you, I would have never even met you. Twenty-five to life with all that you did, Is this the end of love, should I give up? And here I am stuck with a broken heart, And busted up sight. These days are blurring together, And nothing seems al...
Post a Comment
Read more

The Longest Day Dream

Is this what it takes to make an illusion, or Will this ever come to be the truth? Why do I do the things I do? Why do I dream of these horrible things? I just want to know your view. It hurts to know what is not meant to be real. It hurts never knowing what will hurt next. I don’t want you to forget about me. I don’t ever want to go far away. I want to stick around forever. I want to stand up and fight. I don’t want to lay down and die. I want to be more than a weird nobody. I can’t breath on my own. I can’t stand on my own to feet. I need you more than I can imagine. Tell me that everything is O.K! I wish I could say that everything is alright. We can run away and live on forever. Where ever I go the pain follows my soul. Please make it go away from here. I want us to be free from this rule. I want us to run and never think again. I feel like this is my dream, and When I wake my smile will disappear. I want to say hey, everything is great! I want to hold you and talk of the good thin...
Post a Comment
Read more

LeTTer: 9/26/09

Dear Readers, I am so sorry for the way I have been acting on this Blog. I have wrote somethings that were flat out mean. I don't want to lose any one's trust. I try so hard to write what I am feeling, but lately I have just been saying things that were mean. I wish the people that I have hurt can find it in there hearts to trust me again. I do wish everything can go back the way it was, but all we can do is grow as humans. Maybe we are stronger for this mistake, this misunderstanding. I want to say that I forgive you for what happened and I am here with my arms open. I want us to be close again. As friends for now! I will continue to keep everyone in my prayers. I hope that everyone feels better. Just be positive about life. Take a walk and enjoy what God has created. Love, JACK
Post a Comment
Read more