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Words I felt I needed to get out!

There is so much that needs to be done, every time I lift my head I'm crushed from within. I really can't say how much more I can take. I wish it would just go away, but I know that the hurt follows me. I feel like I'm trapped and the words don't come out, but I continue to scream and shout. I wish I did more to help my life, I wish I would have changed my earlier years. I blame myself for doing nothing. Like I always do, yet I still walk around my room acting stupid just like I know to do. I hope to God I find out what's wrong, before it's to late. I seem to meet the people that are out to get me in the end. Everyone Lies, and Nobody can be trusted. Why should I open my eyes when there is never anything good to see? I'm in this car crash nightmare with know one to help me. I take this time to figure this out, I take this time to shut my mouth. How many times do I have to be stuck in this bad luck life? How many times am I going to put my head down in pain? How many times? They never said that this would be easy.

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