I guess I’m not that person, that friend that someone would want to hang around with. I must be to nice and silent. I guess the truth is that people like loud fucking assholes. I’m just to shy to show my true fucking colors, to the people that are around me. Let me be that prick that nobody likes. I can be an arrogant dick if they really want. I can scream at the top of my lungs at everyone that steps in my fucking way. It’s really great when someone is an asshole to me, and I have the brains to hold my tongue and say nothing at all. Why do I have to be the one that is the Grown Up? Why can’t I have any fun?
Everything is very simple I’m the nice guy, I’m the hard worker, I’m the professional. Nobody likes the good guy, The guy that does not drink, The guy the works his hardest so his future family does not have to struggle like he did. This is the guy that would do anything to help out a true friend, but nobody talks to him because he is see through. I can speak!, I can Bleed!, please believe me!!
Mr. Nice Guy.
Is this what it takes to make an illusion, or Will this ever come to be the truth? Why do I do the things I do? Why do I dream of these horrible things? I just want to know your view. It hurts to know what is not meant to be real. It hurts never knowing what will hurt next. I don’t want you to forget about me. I don’t ever want to go far away. I want to stick around forever. I want to stand up and fight. I don’t want to lay down and die. I want to be more than a weird nobody. I can’t breath on my own. I can’t stand on my own to feet. I need you more than I can imagine. Tell me that everything is O.K! I wish I could say that everything is alright. We can run away and live on forever. Where ever I go the pain follows my soul. Please make it go away from here. I want us to be free from this rule. I want us to run and never think again. I feel like this is my dream, and When I wake my smile will disappear. I want to say hey, everything is great! I want to hold you and talk of the good thin...
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