Skip to main content

Beyond The Heartbreak part.3

So why do we run away? I mean I felt that there were plenty of times I just wanted to run from me. I wasn’t mad at her I was angry at me. I made these god awful choices and now I am living with the results. There are so many times where I was angry with myself, but believed so much that she made this bed and now I have to rest in it. What do I know, really? I have no idea what she is feeling right now. That makes everything all the more difficult. I do have a brain. I think that she is either feeling horrible about everything that she has done, and she is burying herself away. Then again I feel like she doesn’t really give a shit anymore and has forgotten the whole situation and has moved on. Here I am stuck in the past bring up these problems that nobody cares about anymore, but that’s my big point. Why can everyone just walk away and I am trapped in this endless pain? I dream of you draped in wires, Hoping that you would spill all the blood that I inspire. Can you see my meaningless heart, It sweats and shakes until it falls apart. I can strike with these tired eyes, But I wish to see you fall. I got this soul, and it’s all fired up. I’ll teach you all the things that run rabid in my head. I welcome your sweet heart to this twisted game. I’ll make it bleed and I’ll make it break. I’ll take you all on! There is no crutch, I can bind you with your lines. Let you fall face down like I have.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

The Longest Day Dream

Is this what it takes to make an illusion, or Will this ever come to be the truth? Why do I do the things I do? Why do I dream of these horrible things? I just want to know your view. It hurts to know what is not meant to be real. It hurts never knowing what will hurt next. I don’t want you to forget about me. I don’t ever want to go far away. I want to stick around forever. I want to stand up and fight. I don’t want to lay down and die. I want to be more than a weird nobody. I can’t breath on my own. I can’t stand on my own to feet. I need you more than I can imagine. Tell me that everything is O.K! I wish I could say that everything is alright. We can run away and live on forever. Where ever I go the pain follows my soul. Please make it go away from here. I want us to be free from this rule. I want us to run and never think again. I feel like this is my dream, and When I wake my smile will disappear. I want to say hey, everything is great! I want to hold you and talk of the good thin...
Post a Comment
Read more

LeTTer: 9/26/09

Dear Readers, I am so sorry for the way I have been acting on this Blog. I have wrote somethings that were flat out mean. I don't want to lose any one's trust. I try so hard to write what I am feeling, but lately I have just been saying things that were mean. I wish the people that I have hurt can find it in there hearts to trust me again. I do wish everything can go back the way it was, but all we can do is grow as humans. Maybe we are stronger for this mistake, this misunderstanding. I want to say that I forgive you for what happened and I am here with my arms open. I want us to be close again. As friends for now! I will continue to keep everyone in my prayers. I hope that everyone feels better. Just be positive about life. Take a walk and enjoy what God has created. Love, JACK
Post a Comment
Read more

Where I Belong

It is such a marvelous light, This beautiful ray still shines during, The darkest part of the night. How selfish are we to take what isn't ours, We build on the beauty of your world. We take down trees and burn them to the ground. We turn what is rightfully yours into a wasteland. We dig until we can’t stand anymore, And we blame you for our mistakes. We are abusing what was once beautiful. I will follow your beauty to the edge, And when I know where you are, it is where I want to be. When I don’t know where you are, you are where I belong. Here I am breathing just to breathe, I am dreaming just to dream. So quick to take advantage of all you give me. Here I hurt because she has hurt me, And I bleed because he has cut me. I am so quick to blame everyone else. Here I am fearing just to fear him, I stay awake because I believe I am free, And do what I want because I think I have the control, But you’re the only one to put me in ...
Post a Comment
Read more