"Well I am back at the whole writing thing. Of course I haven't posted much from my last set of poems. It's hard when I don't think that people should read them yet. I am writing a new set of poems I have been posting different poems lately, but I am finally ready to focus on one set of poems. The theme.... Well I am writing from my experiences of leaving everything I love behind just to find something I already knew. I am also taking the idea from the movie "The Nines" (2007). ( It's a movie about Micheal (Ryan Reynolds) the arch Angel and he has created different worlds for millions of years, and he is so obsessed with what he has created he begins to get involved in them. Only he doesn't remember who he is because he's so consumed with this creations.) Well there is much more to it then that. It's such a great, put together film. If you haven't seen it yet trust me you should see it. I am taking the idea of having this creation and you can do anything you want, but your so amazed by what you've created you just want to be apart of these peoples lives. I think everyone feels this at one point in there lives. I mean we find film to completely escape our lives. I want to explore it more get everything I can't get out of it. I know there is a lot a emotion in it. How would it feel if you had a child, and you could never be with them. All you could do is look at them from a distance. Not to rant on films, but I feel that they are really lacking on bring reality to the stories. I miss that.. at one point I wanted to be a Actor for that reason. You miss the creativity, now it's all about how much money a film can make, then about making a connection with someone. Anyways I'm letting you know I'm really going to put my heart and soul into these words. There not all going to be pleasant, but it won't all be about pain. I just hope that you readers will enjoy what I write. Let me put it this way I am creating these feelings out of thin air, so don't think I'm jumping in and out of my troubled life. I feel that I was given the gift to write about feelings. Thanks to all my readers."
I'm losing a little bit of me inside. All of the breakdowns drive them to hide. I'm wandering around hoping to find something that will never be true. My mind is spinning away from me. I can't see what's in front of me. I tried to be someone else, but the pain doesn't go nowhere else. I WANT TO BREAK!! I want to fall to my knee's. I want to scream out loud. I can't take this anymore. I'm stuck in this hole, and there is nobody to dig me out. With my back up against the wall, I can't see my dreams when your standing in my way. I'm staring at the future begging for the past. I know the good times, but they don't ever last. I WANT TO BREAK!! I want to fall to the floor. I want to scream out loud. I don't think I can take this anymore! My heart is still beating, but my breathing is getting weaker with all of this weight on top of my chest. I keep on fighting these angels wrestling these demons to the ground. I keep on walking until I los...
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