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I am sure I fell last night,
I fell to my grave were you stay,
and once we said goodbye,
I had all the worst thoughts.
I broken into the dust that I am.
No one else will know these lonely dreams.
No one else will know that part of me.
I am running from this pain.
I am still driving away,
and I am sorry every single day.
I won't always love such selfish things.
I won't always be a nervous wreck.
This wasn't our time to decide,
I knew it wasn't our time,
From all the yelling and shouting.
No one else will have me like you do.
No one else will have me, only you.
You can sit there alone forever,
You cry your eyes out,
but If your waiting for the right time,
what are you hoping for?
I used to be ready and now I am my worst fear!
Hold on tight, don't give away the ending.
I am the one thing that said bye.
Amazing how this still is,
this fall I would have been twenty three.
I won't always love what I never had.
I won't always hate what you have.
It was time to move on,
It's not what we wanted,
but it was what we needed.
I won't always believe in the wrong people,
I won't always say such evil things.
My love for you will never be free, 
It's funny how long it's been,
this fall I would have been twenty four.

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