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Say goodbye to sleep,
I think this pill is exactly what I need.
This pain throws me right against the walls,
and I am standing on all of my flaws.
I can hear the voices so clearly,
Chew me up, and swallow me!
Everyone keeps laughing at me,
and I can't stop tearing up my head.
I tried to walk around with good intentions,
but the truth is I really don’t have one.
I blame myself for being to much like somebody else.
And I hope to God I can figure all of this out.
I am climbing up such a damaged path,
I just don’t want to let myself fall back.
Say goodbye you lair,
Hard of speaking any type of truth.
You just can't own up to anything.
Only in your dreams can you inspire,
And you'll never admit that you started that fire.
You took the one thing that I cared about,
and now I am left with an emptiness in my soul.
Even In a crowded room,
I can't feel this disease taking over me.
It doesn’t give me an excuse to look away.
I can’t see nothing but your brutal fake face.
I close my eyes, and you remind me of that awful taste.
So take apart what's left of me,
and I'll take away all of this anger,
That's living inside of my heart.
Even though I try,
I can't stop from losing you inside,
I never say anything right,
and I pay for the loss of control.
Say Goodbye to Love,
I never realized that losing you,
means losing my everything.
These drugs are exactly what I need.
Now I'm Living in regret,
Because I can’t seem to shake this little feeling.
Why are you the one that I am needing?

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