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Addicted


I raced throughout this tragedy,
and every step was made for me to fail.
I look upon the stars,
but this light doesn't guide me.
I felt the taste in my mouth,
I just want to feel your love,
Why can't I just see you?
I keep on fighting these waves,
they knock me up against these walls.
I am known for falling face down,
but despite the agony, God,
I will always look to you.
These days I have been stumbling,
These days I have been tripping over myself.
Everything is crumbling down on my shoulders.
I am sorry for my addictions,
They get a hold of me some times.
I wish I could speak the truth,
and when I fall down on my knee's,
You would come down and listen to me.
If I begged you, would you come?
Would you come closer to my heart,
and pour in your strength?
Please don't run away.
This is just another one of my mistakes.
I can't seem to get away from this distraction.
It sets inside of my head,
and I lose all of my control.
How can I fall so hard?
I am so addicted to this drug,
and it keeps poisoning my heart,
but I still can't get enough.

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