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 "Look at it now, it's been another year. I can say that 2010 wasn't the best not by the least bit. A little sideways if you ask me. You know, up and down. My expectations for this year was really high, but it wasn't even close to what I imagined. Last year I remember having this plan to recovery, but that didn't really pan out to well. It feels more like little explosions went off during this year. I spent half the year in New York. Buffalo, NY that is, so I didn't have the luxury of the city part. I spent a lot of time with my family, I got a boring job, and got stuck in this trap of doing the same route over and over. I found myself at the movies a lot, and I went out to some bars/night clubs. (which I found to be irritating) Oh yeah, I worked out like seven days a week with my dad. (which was great by the way) After awhile I found myself getting tried, and I needed a quick change. The truth is that I didn't know what I wanted. I seem to make one dump decision after another, and all I can do is live with them.
I change my mind so many times I don't know what I am doing. The next big thing on my decisions list was applying at MACU. Although a great school, I am completely tired of school's and the testing. I guess I don't have any say so in that. I got so used to Acting, that now I don't have a clue what I'll do the rest of my life. I am lost, still. When is the right time to fall apart? I am looking for my life, I am looking for my career. I can't wait to have a grasp on one part of my life for a change. Besides the awesome albums I have listen to, and the new bands, sadly my year has been lack luster, but since 2009 was so damn eventful, I am okay with the dullness of this year. I have certainly learned to not have such high expectations because most likely they'll drain you. Yeah, I can talk about what I want to happen this coming year, but the truth is that I have no idea what will happen. I can't predict the future. I wish the same old things, and I dream of great things, but when does all those hopes, and dreams ever come true? I am just going to continue to do what I do best, and stop worrying about all of this crap. I know I have many more lessons to learn, so here is too 2011 the year of question."

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