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What If I was Crazy?

What if I was crazy?
Would you listen to me then?
All strung up in your playground,
So I talked with a crooked tongue?
What would you think of me then?
The words pile up inside of me.
Sometimes I drown it inside of myself.
I take the darkness and I hide away,
I make something into nothing
I twist my words into worst,
And I pay for all it is worth.
I am a sinful man.
Can I do any worse?
As quick as the day becomes night,
I lose my footing in this world.
those words that come passed my lips
Become veil and untrue.
God won't you cleanse these opened wounds?
Dear everyone that I have ever known,
I am sorry for my abuse.
I wish you didn't have to pay as well as suffer
For my multitude of mistakes.
Will you ever forgive me?
Here is my sorry heart
I place it on my sorry hands again.
But what if I was crazy,
Would you run away from the sight of me?
Would you Condemn me for my sins?
What could I do with the pain within?

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