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Hopeless As Nobody

All heads on deck because this ship was meant to sink. Breathing deeply walking blind into this blood fight. There voices slowly faded away in a shouting match. Waking up again with my throat slit to my confidence. Open up wide this reality is just a bad fucked up dream. These memories make me cry the ones I don't remember. Believe me when I say this train is going nowhere fast. Yelling words to suffocate to in this shattered broken home. Only if I can stand when I get back up off my knee's. I'm falling into this white room trapped in my head forever. I can't run from these cuts and bruises you left to me. I'm fading into invisible in this empty world. Staring into my eye's there is to much of nothing. Living images in this crash course shattered life. If you could taste what I can feel then you wouldn't forget me. I'm tripping on something called nothing at all. I'm cheating so deeply with this broken bottle shattered glass. It's a dark night and these long words will never hold me. Another death soul that nobody knows. Taking over doses of to many pills into a shining light. To bad for me so long and good night.

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Madison said…
'I'm tripping on something called nothing at all.'

Ah, I'm going to quote you one day.
You're a great writer.

Don't let anyone- friends, strangers, yourself- make you think otherwise.
November 5, 2008 at 12:45 AM
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