I don’t have anyone and that’s the way it has been.
If I am not locked up then I don’t know what is up!
I am just the image living in my head.
I am never really there and the picture is a still.
I am so afraid of everything thrown my way.
I am nobodies friend because nobody is what is there.
I want to just take apart the pain, and
Take apart the emotions.
Please just chew me up and shallow me!
and there is nothing really here!
I am just a puddle of blood and tears.
I don’t mind you in my skin.
I want to see you even closer than before.
I really don’t want it.
I really don’t want to disappear.
It looks like I can’t ever just stop.
I don’t have anyone and it is the way I like it!
Don’t speak to me unless it’s something I care about!
I can’t say I do care thou.
I am just a word that nobody likes to say.
Avoid me at all costs and you won’t get hurt.
Please just chew me up and shallow me!
Is this what it takes to make an illusion, or Will this ever come to be the truth? Why do I do the things I do? Why do I dream of these horrible things? I just want to know your view. It hurts to know what is not meant to be real. It hurts never knowing what will hurt next. I don’t want you to forget about me. I don’t ever want to go far away. I want to stick around forever. I want to stand up and fight. I don’t want to lay down and die. I want to be more than a weird nobody. I can’t breath on my own. I can’t stand on my own to feet. I need you more than I can imagine. Tell me that everything is O.K! I wish I could say that everything is alright. We can run away and live on forever. Where ever I go the pain follows my soul. Please make it go away from here. I want us to be free from this rule. I want us to run and never think again. I feel like this is my dream, and When I wake my smile will disappear. I want to say hey, everything is great! I want to hold you and talk of the good thin...
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