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Beyond The Heartbreak (part.4)

Well I know what love looks like at least I think I do. All I can say is that I was in love with her. What more can I say. It’s not like I didn’t fight for her. I almost went crazy over her. I also know that there were plenty of reasons why she would leave me. I complained about my job all the time, but I never did anything about it. At the time I was depressed and I was going through some difficult times in my life. The truth is I did love her with all my heart and I would have done anything for her. Maybe I wasn’t a millionaire, but I would’ve gave away everything for her. This maybe tough love as she calls it, but I still have some type of love for her. It’s the one thing that never faded away. The hardest part to this whole thing is finding the next person and giving them what they deserve. Not what they want, but what they deserve. This will be a hard process. I want to trust again, but it’s just going to take me some time. Through the storms and onto the light. Now with nobody to stand by my side. There are times where I feel the teeth marks of love. The indentation buried deep in my skin. The windows are still open and the moon is bright. All I need is one thing. Maybe it’s time I give something new a try. This life feels more and more like wine. I feel the sweet breath of time. It’s passing me by. It whispers at me like a child, And I am all for no more fallen dreams.

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