Through out my Life I have been on and off about everything that I love, but there is one constant in my life, and that's God. I struggled through so much in my life that it's hard to find all the good things. God is the good things. He is someone I can share all my problems with and not feel scared about saying to much, he is someone I can let all my secrets go to. Yesterday I felt so grateful to be alive. It was such a beautiful day I had to spend it outside. I may not be the most perfect person, but I really feel like I am ready to move on from all of my past situations. Moving to NY is, and must be my new start, and I so badly just want to start again. Meet new people, and be in new relationships. I am really tired of feeling sorry for myself. The last couple of months I have been posting a relationship poetry on this blog "Beyond the Heart Break", but this was about four months ago that I wrote all of this. I feel that my blog is behind. I just wanted to update it with something new and different. I am always writing poetry and sometimes I get carried away with what I am doing that I forget to post it on this blog. Plus I really don't know if anyone is reading it anymore. I wish you could at least respond to it every once in awhile to let me know. I'll try my best to post new poetry, Things I haven't tried before. I will be in my first film it's called Crimson, and for now I am waiting for the script, but I will keep you posted. Thank you for the ones that read my blog.
Is this what it takes to make an illusion, or Will this ever come to be the truth? Why do I do the things I do? Why do I dream of these horrible things? I just want to know your view. It hurts to know what is not meant to be real. It hurts never knowing what will hurt next. I don’t want you to forget about me. I don’t ever want to go far away. I want to stick around forever. I want to stand up and fight. I don’t want to lay down and die. I want to be more than a weird nobody. I can’t breath on my own. I can’t stand on my own to feet. I need you more than I can imagine. Tell me that everything is O.K! I wish I could say that everything is alright. We can run away and live on forever. Where ever I go the pain follows my soul. Please make it go away from here. I want us to be free from this rule. I want us to run and never think again. I feel like this is my dream, and When I wake my smile will disappear. I want to say hey, everything is great! I want to hold you and talk of the good thin...
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