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Through out my Life I have been on and off about everything that I love, but there is one constant in my life, and that's God. I struggled through so much in my life that it's hard to find all the good things. God is the good things. He is someone I can share all my problems with and not feel scared about saying to much, he is someone I can let all my secrets go to. Yesterday I felt so grateful to be alive. It was such a beautiful day I had to spend it outside. I may not be the most perfect person, but I really feel like I am ready to move on from all of my past situations. Moving to NY is, and must be my new start, and I so badly just want to start again. Meet new people, and be in new relationships. I am really tired of feeling sorry for myself. The last couple of months I have been posting a relationship poetry on this blog "Beyond the Heart Break", but this was about four months ago that I wrote all of this. I feel that my blog is behind. I just wanted to update it with something new and different. I am always writing poetry and sometimes I get carried away with what I am doing that I forget to post it on this blog. Plus I really don't know if anyone is reading it anymore. I wish you could at least respond to it every once in awhile to let me know. I'll try my best to post new poetry, Things I haven't tried before. I will be in my first film it's called Crimson, and for now I am waiting for the script, but I will keep you posted. Thank you for the ones that read my blog.

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