How do you know that she is the right one for you, and does God feel the same way? In my experience with dating as a Christian, it is so easy to fall for someone you like, and put them first in your life. I know how to make a girl feel special, I know how to make them laugh, and give them the attention that they deserve. But that’s where the problem lies; I continue to lose sight of God, and making him number one in my life. I think the true problem is that I don’t know how to treat someone I am in love with like they aren’t the center of my life. I don’t know how to put them number two. I have this feeling in my gut that if I don’t focus on them that I might lose them. Trust me God truly knows how to let you know that you’re not putting him first in a relationship. In the middle of this relationship I had this internal struggle with myself, and God was really trying to tell me something, and I just didn’t get it until now that relationship is over. “He is jealous for me, Loves like a hurricane; I am a tree, bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.” Taken from the words of John Mark McMillan song How He Loves, I believe that this is so true. During my struggle to understand what God was telling me I had a hard time fighting off my own sin. This message that God was trying to tell me or warning me happened at different points during our relationship. I wasn’t as close to the Lord as I once was, and God wanted my full attention. “Do not worship any other god, for the Lord, whose name is Jealous, is a jealous God” (Exodus 34:14). As for the relationship I started to realize that as a Christian she wasn’t holding up her end of the torch, per say. I am not here saying that she wasn’t a good Christian, and didn’t love God. I am saying that certain things changed the way I looked at her…things like praying out loud, or not only reading the Bible, but studying it. At one point she was turned off by the idea of going out and helping people that were less fortune then her and I. I am certainly not saying that she was a bad person. She had, and still does have a lot of love inside of her heart. I guess she was just scared to step outside of her comfort zone, but the Bible teaches us that we need to be strong, and be able to go beyond our comfort zone, and serve him to the fullest. “So if there is any encouragement in Christ, any comfort from love, any participation in the Spirit, any affection and sympathy, complete my joy by being of the same mind, having the same love, being in full accord and of one mind. Do nothing from rivalry or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves. Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others. Have this mind among yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus,” (Philippians 2: 1-13). Since our relationship ended I realized that all I needed was Jesus, and I began a new relationship with him. He is now number one in my life. I spend more time reading his word, and praying to him. I Praise him, thank him throughout the day, and I am more joyful in Church. So is there something in your life keeping you from having God fully in your life. Would you consider removing it completely for God, I believe God will do amazing things if you show him that nothing in the world will get in the way with his relationship with you.
I am trying some new types of posting. I will still be posting poetry, but it’s almost a new year, and I wanted to do things differently. Tell me what you think.
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