JACK'S BLOG

 I miss the celebration, of another year older. These days get so long, I forget about this perfect song. We wrote this song for you, and we sing this with our hearts. What if you fell, where would you land? I am sure you will follow through, It gets so cold here when not by you, Lets walk to the edge and follow the sun. I will stay by your side, I will never lose sight. This life has seen better days, but let's celebrate today. We share this day with you, Even when we are just passing through, We are still searching for something for you. Let's howl at the moon, As we wish to never get old. I know it will take some time, to get this day off your mind. Let's forget about the remaining hours, and just have some fun! And as we stare off into this world. I wish you happy birthday girl, I sure miss you!

  So much for this loss of control, I am feeling so cold, What is happening to my soul? Stumbling through the days of old. Don't you panic! Don't you get nervous, Don't you run with your fear. It feels like a dream, but everything is so real. Don't give up on this fight. Everything will eventually be alright. So much for this so called brand new day, everyone just keeps on passing away. I wish you would stay, but in the end you always fade. Don't be so miserable, Don't leave yourself alone, Though things seem strange, everything will eventually change. So much for those easy escapes, and so much for this perfect life. Don't you lose your sight, Don't you lose the fight, Don't make the wrongs right. So much for this tragedy, So much for these horrifying memories. Don't be so rude, Don't be so cruel, because it's alright Don't you yell at me, Don't lose your faith. So much for the blood, So much for t

"Well, it's that time of year again where I step aside from my blog activity, and put time into other work. I am currently writing some concept poems about finding yourself. I have three to four more poems I want to post before the holidays, but after that I will be taking a break until 2011. I am also in the middle of re-writing a short story because I know I can do better with what I have. Hopefully I'll have that to post for the new year. Next year I am going to try my best to sticking to a theme. Also before the new year I'll post my top twenty albums of 2010."

I am walking out of my house, and I am finally taking out the trash. All the dirt washes from my hands, But these stains won't come out. I scrubbed them until my hands bleed. Each day it nags at me, and this day I can't take it anymore. I love these clothes, but I hate all of the holes. Year after year they get old, and the stitches don't hold. I wish I could just throw them away, but I have a hard time letting go. I gave up my heart, and my soul, but nobody really knows. You can see the damage they have taken, but these feelings I am not faking. It's as if my heart is the shelve, and the smell reminds me of you, and all of the things we used to do. I am walking out of my house, and I am taking out the trash, but it's time this garbage finally goes out.

 You have broken me all the way down. down to the dirt underneath my feet. down to blood on my knee's. You have broken all of me, now! I am shattered like these mirrors. I am controlled by my fears. This will be the last, you'll see. Some fight you gave me, when I pushed you away, You sure showed me, with all of your screams. You have broken me all the way down. This will be the last, you'll see. What a chance you took, What an effort you made, When you missed every shot. You just walked away. In this darkness when you find this, I will finally be free, you'll be in the light, you'll see, now it's time for you to leave. I hope your as broken as me.

I used to be this perfect son, and now I just don't want follow in my father's footsteps anymore. Once you have sinned, You'll always sin, so I carry my past up over my head. I used to be the one that made his parents proud, but now I don't live inside my father's house. I struggled making this bed, and now I can't fall asleep in it. These things used to be so clear, but now I just can't figure them out. I want to be living in the past, but instead I am living a dream, everything is so imaginary! I am sick of writing about, these people I don't want to write about anymore. Now I am seeing so many different things, but now I am not quite believing in any of them. I lost all of my good friends, or at least the ones I used to know well. I used to be someone you can look to, now I am someone you look from. I used to see the simpler side to things, but now all I see is the sin I live in. I could lose my mind, I should cover my eyes.

I raced throughout this tragedy, and every step was made for me to fail. I look upon the stars, but this light doesn't guide me. I felt the taste in my mouth, I just want to feel your love, Why can't I just see you? I keep on fighting these waves, they knock me up against these walls. I am known for falling face down, but despite the agony, God, I will always look to you. These days I have been stumbling, These days I have been tripping over myself. Everything is crumbling down on my shoulders. I am sorry for my addictions, They get a hold of me some times. I wish I could speak the truth, and when I fall down on my knee's, You would come down and listen to me. If I begged you, would you come? Would you come closer to my heart, and pour in your strength? Please don't run away. This is just another one of my mistakes. I can't seem to get away from this distraction. It sets inside of my head, and I lose all of my control. How can I fall so hard? I am so addicted to th

Say goodbye to sleep, I think this pill is exactly what I need. This pain throws me right against the walls, and I am standing on all of my flaws. I can hear the voices so clearly, Chew me up, and swallow me! Everyone keeps laughing at me, and I can't stop tearing up my head. I tried to walk around with good intentions, but the truth is I really don’t have one. I blame myself for being to much like somebody else. And I hope to God I can figure all of this out. I am climbing up such a damaged path, I just don’t want to let myself fall back. Say goodbye you lair, Hard of speaking any type of truth. You just can't own up to anything. Only in your dreams can you inspire, And you'll never admit that you started that fire. You took the one thing that I cared about, and now I am left with an emptiness in my soul. Even In a crowded room, I can't feel this disease taking over me. It doesn’t give me an excuse to look away. I can’t see nothing but your bru

I am sure I fell last night, I fell to my grave were you stay, and once we said goodbye, I had all the worst thoughts. I broken into the dust that I am. No one else will know these lonely dreams. No one else will know that part of me. I am running from this pain. I am still driving away, and I am sorry every single day. I won't always love such selfish things. I won't always be a nervous wreck. This wasn't our time to decide, I knew it wasn't our time, From all the yelling and shouting. No one else will have me like you do . No one else will have me, only you. You can sit there alone forever, You cry your eyes out, but If your waiting for the right time , what are you hoping for? I used to be ready and now I am my worst fear! Hold on tight, don't give away the ending. I am the one thing that said bye. Amazing how this still is, this fall I would have been twenty three. I won't always love what I never had. I won't always hate what you have. It was time to m

Dream: I love this night, It's so peaceful and quiet. The moon is my light. I can hear the crickets chirping, and there is a cool breeze, that gives me a chill. Reality: Can you really be trusted? I can see your heart rusting. I heard your words before, but this time its all different. It sounds a little upsurged. Why is this happening to me? I never beat you, I never raised my hand, I never yelled out. How can I believe in your selfish deceit? Why did you find me? I can see this in your eyes, your love for me has died. But you continue to lie. my heart understands, but why must you pour down pain? You know my name, and I'll love you anyway. Dream: I love this night, the stars light up the sky, There's no worries or questions. I am walking on this cracked sidewalk, and I am following the flickering street lamps. I love how I can give her my jacket to keep her warm, and I didn't even think twice. I love how we can see the reflection of the moon in the