JACK'S BLOG

When the hits continue rolling in, I find myself running towards my deepest fears And when I see your pretty face, All my pain just fades away. Even when the pain is buried so deep, It takes more than a shovel to make them leave. I am too proud to ask for your help, I’ll do it all on my own this time, Until I can’t hold myself up anymore. Please won’t you lend me your hand? But please don’t you voice your filth opinions, Underneath your sinful tongue. I work and I work, And these scars still hurt, These tears continue to fall. Let me play with my smile, And laugh for awhile Until the pain becomes real, So then I can steal it all away. Run, run, run as fast as you can, It is what you do best, But I am going nowhere. I will plant my feet in these shoes, I will hold my ground as long as I am alive, And I will stand fighting through these scars. So don’t you ever give up,  Don’t you ever give in.

This night proves to be glories, The wind blows through and The sky is surrounded with stars. We could’ve talked for hours, We hinted of the joy in our hearts, Laughing and carrying onward. Oh precious son of yours, Won’t you come this time? Let your trumpet sound. It’s all quiet in this town, We lay still on the soft grass, Counting all of the stars by their names, But you are the one that named them all. I wish I could see all of your wonders, Though we took another look, But we had lost everything we had worked hard for, Years went by staring off into the sky, But it was just never the same. Won’t you pave the way? And shine your light, Make this hold on us to be the truth, That we are saved by you.

I'm still kicking up the dust from these dirt fulled carpets, Fighting against these creaking doors, and I blame it all on the these grey walls. Won’t you just let me go, Out of this old beat up home? I’m just so tired of being trapped inside. Wasting years secluded in my lies. Just let me free to see the world, And what it can bring to me. It has been a lifetime of disasters, Enough to drag any old man down. There goes the pain of my past, Written all over these crumbling walls. So I’ll take all of my things, And I’ll head off on this great adventure, And I may fall apart along the way, But I am holding my head up high, And I am praying for the time of my life. I don’t know where I am heading, But I am going until I am getting there. Won’t you lift me up along the way, And let that be it for you?

   In the last ten years I have been the loser, the coward, and the scared. I have been the brokenhearted, and the depressed. I have been sheltered and the wimp. I have been the geek and the laughed at, but right now in this very moment, I am the Nerd. When I was a kid the word Nerd was deemed as an insult, and today I take it in stride. Today the word Nerd means something else, cool, hipster, brave, and in some cases popular. I was one of those kids that grow up watching the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles cartoon from the 80’s that had the matching pajamas, and the each turtle action figure. I watched all of the Live Action Films and dreamed of them making a new one. A Nerd is a person, typically described as being overly intellectual, obsessive, or socially impaired. Okay maybe I am not overly intellectual, but I am can be obsessive and social impaired. Since I was a kid I obsessed over Video Games like; Super Mario Brothers, Asteroids, Duck Hunt, Twisted Metal, and Sports Gam