JACK'S BLOG

Every day I dream of a paradise, where I could break free from the stereotypes, Somewhere I can shake off this disease, even though I created these catastrophes, now I must suffer through them, or let them begin to bury me alive. I have faked a better half of the decade, and I have grown to learn to hold back these tears. and when the pain hits so deep, I begin to fight the unimaginable and I begin to attempted to destroy the unthinkable, as the days become more suffocating, my mind becomes overcrowded, and sometimes I feel trapped inside. all the walls close in on me, my ego becomes bruised, and my subconscious stays broken, in here I can see the darkness, I can feel it feeding on all my darkest fears. oh death, won’t you set me free, because I have done this to myself, I’ve created a prison. https://inbetweenjackswords.wordpress.com/2015/07/05/prisoner/

Awake my soul, because sometimes I can’t fight anymore, I am still burning through my core. I still feel broken and alone, even when I know your all around. I am unforgiven, I can’t stop myself from sinning, I am not sure where my heart is. I indulge every dark desire drowning in oceans of sins from where should I begin, this feels sickening, I know I can’t do this alone. I fail to repent, such inability to look forward, I am not sure where my mind has gone. Awake this love, because I am stuck in my old ways, the past digs a hole deep inside of me. A darkness has taken hold, won’t you shine your light in me? https://inbetweenjackswords.wordpress.com/2015/06/18/awake-my-soul/