"Everyday I wake up thinking that everything is wrong, and I want a big change in my life. I realize that nothing can go perfectly in one single day. I know that it doesn't matter what I do I can't plan anything, I can't wish, and hope for the day where everything in life comes to my door step. Deep inside my soul I feel like I have something locked away. I never know when, or what it is.....I feel like it could be good, but how would I know. The last couple of weeks I have been away from school, and it's been awhile since I held down a job. You can go fishing with all of the things swimming around in my head. For the most part I got a lot of time to think, but that's just the point. Everyday I feel like things could be the very same, and nothing changes. It's another summer in this city, and again I can't find a job. I am halfway to thirty and a career is in question. But for the one thing that is certain I finally met someone special. Someone real to the touch, I don't have to dream anymore, I don't have to wish anymore because the one thing that I dreamt about for years as already come true. I really believe that this life doesn't matter as much as it seems. We are here for one reason, and that is to serve God. I don't really understand why all of the other stuff matters to us. At the end of each day I realize who, and why I love them. I do know that everyday is a challenge, it's a learning experience for me. I believe that was all it was meant for. I know in my heart that one day things will change for the better, and I will look back on these blog posts and laugh at myself and the way I was acting. I don't just write because I want people to write my word but it's because one day I can go back over them and enjoy my experiences."
If I could change a thing, I think I would have changed everything. If I could have known the truth, I would have never been with you. Twenty-five and I am so tired of this childish love, And all the pain that comes along with all its games. Seems such a waste to throw it all away, But I am who I am, like me or not, But you will never be able to change me. The world has its grips on you, And I am no way getting involved. Today could be the greatest of days, But what would you have changed? All of your wrong mistakes, your bad calls, All your fear and lies, Or are you just so selfish inside? If I could change the way we were, I think I would change everything. If I knew the absolute truth about you, I would have never even met you. Twenty-five to life with all that you did, Is this the end of love, should I give up? And here I am stuck with a broken heart, And busted up sight. These days are blurring together, And nothing seems al...
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