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I Should Have Known

I was looking to close to the sun,
I should have just burned up instead.
So won’t you leave my heart to rest?
I should have seen the look in your eyes,
The ominous stares, the random cry's
I should have seen all the damn signs,
Where you drew all these red lines.
Now all our bridges are burning down.
I’ll let your love burn through the ground.
Your words still cut through the scars.
Scattered in the ashes,
Everything has gone away.
You made me go insane.

I should have known this would have ended like this.
I should have known there was no other way.
I should have known by the shape you were in.
I should have known, I was inside of you,
I should have known that side to you.
I should have known having been here before.

No I can’t forgive you yet.
My hopes have gone up in smoke waiting for you
So give me some rope I am coming loose,
And I am going after you.
Your indecision has got me climbing up a wall.
I can’t help tear out all who is involved.
So let me put you in your place,
So tell me what is in it for me?
I am not giving up or giving in,
You’re stuck with all that haunts you.
You think living like this is going to change who you are?
You got away from me, now you better run far.

I should have known you would have left me out to dry.
I should have known you would have broken what was left inside. 
I should have known by the company you keep,
I should have known you would have used me to abuse me,
and left me here to die with a smile on your face.
I should have known....

Comments

K Grace said…
You are an amazing writer, your poems all hit me so hard. This one I can relate to especially. Keep using your God-given talent of writing, because it is truly amazing.
Unknown said…
Thanks for your comment..I don't get many and it is nice when I do.

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